Okay so the night before last I make a rush trip to Hasting's to get an Anniversary card because I was thinking it was our anniversary (wrong again - it is the 28th - can you beat that date into my head).....so anyhow I have the child in tow - which always ends up in a "Can I get this? Can I get that?" shopping trip which really puts me at the end of my already WAAAAAAAAAYYY to short of a rope! So, after picking up two cards - one for our anniversary and one for a friend - I am looking "quickly" through the music to find a song that I want! I ask the clerk to help me and tell him the name of the song "Hollywood is not America" and he has no clue who sings it.....which, I knew it started with an "F" and it had something to do with American Idol a few years back but he says he doesn't watch that show - well, HELLOOOOOOOOO, neither do I (okay, maybe this year off and on but never before)! Anyhow - never did find the CD or song.....THANKS MISTER CLERK!
The problem ensues as I race to the checkout - leaving the child in the dust with the magnetic chess board he wants to which I have said NOOOOOOOOOOOO about 15 times! I get to the counter and I say to the clerk lady "you need to serve alcohol here I think" and she laughs as she sees the kid begging for candy now. I once again say "NO" (I know, I know - no MOM OF THE YEAR award for me). Anyhow as Angelo is reasoning with me as to WHY I should let him pick out candy the clerk says to me don't you go to Lourdes? I say "yes" and she says "that is where I recognize you from". In my head I am thinking GREAT, I have just sounded like a real witch and asked for alcohol.....what kind of person am I? About this time I am brought back to reality by my son saying "I am surprised you recognize us as we haven't been to church for forever, like 10 weeks....(actually son, it is more like six months) but okay, 10 weeks is good. She laughs at him and I say "THANKS ANG". The clerk says it is okay because she hasn't been going for awhile either. Now my child has just revealed that I have been skipping out on church and I am on the highway to hell practically! I try to explain to him that he shouldn't say things like that on our walk out to the car but he didn't see what was all wrong about what he said - HONESTY from the mouth of a babe!
He can stay home with daddy-O the next time!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
ROCKET MAN.....
This morning was Angelo's rocket launch at school! His class has been working on rockets and studying space for awhile. Today was the big day where they had finally built their rockets, made a choice on an engine, packed their shutes and were ready for the great "BLAST OFF"! J&I both took some time off this morning to go and watch. The energy of the kids excitement was in the air! How fun for them! Angelo's first blast off was a failure at the launch pad - mission control had forgot to remove tape from the engine area and it hung up on the launch pad. I could see the disappointment as his rocket sat on the launch pad and didn't shoot in the air as the rockets prior to his. I thought he was going to cry standing their on the hillside.....it was sad! His teacher reassured him that he would have a relaunch and he did and the second time it flew out of sight! He got to retrieve from the field and amazingly, it is still intact and could probably be sent into "space" again! Way cool for the kid! It reminded me of my childhood and my brother and I riding our bikes to the local rocket store (yes there was a store that sold rockets and I know exactly where it used to be too) and picking rockets out and engines and taking them home and assembling them and shooting them off! Good Fun!
Anyhow, just being around all his class made me realize that my kid is no different than the rest of them - they are all wild, talking, running around, being kids! It seems for the past few months I was feeling like a failure because he has been in so much trouble at school it seemed! I was so frustrated not necessarily with him but with the whole entire WORLD and especially the school! I was tired of it! Today I got to see that the other kids are just like mine! Pushing each other, jumping on one another, performing for each other, screaming, yelling, running wild - all BUILT UP ENERGY! I haven't failed as a parent! My kid is "normal"! He is a good kid! He is the best kid because he is MINE!
Anyhow, just being around all his class made me realize that my kid is no different than the rest of them - they are all wild, talking, running around, being kids! It seems for the past few months I was feeling like a failure because he has been in so much trouble at school it seemed! I was so frustrated not necessarily with him but with the whole entire WORLD and especially the school! I was tired of it! Today I got to see that the other kids are just like mine! Pushing each other, jumping on one another, performing for each other, screaming, yelling, running wild - all BUILT UP ENERGY! I haven't failed as a parent! My kid is "normal"! He is a good kid! He is the best kid because he is MINE!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
What Brenda Means....
You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
Davenport, Washington & 2 Rivers Casino Campground...
The road from L-town to Two Rivers Casino outside of Davenport on Lake Roosevelt long and somewhat dreary! Why is it the road to somewhere is always longer than the road back?
So yesterday we take a road trip to see some friends sing & play the drums (Blue Heeler is the group) at Customer Appreciation Day at the campground at Two Rivers Casino. It was great to hear Blue Heeler sing and T drum away ~ Awesome group! I think they were amazed we would drive 3 hours to see them and support them - it was worth it though! Beautiful campground, nice people and always a delight to hear the singing and drumming! We got out of the campbround about 5:00 and drove back to Spokane which was at least an hour back through Davenport and Reardan (never been there (REARDAN???) but they are having a MULES DAY celebration next weekend for all you MULES out there (for lack of a better word))!
After arriving back in Spokane we decided to go see the Spokane River as it is flowing at a very high stage with all the local flooding from the snowmelt and rain happening - it was pretty outstanding and I got some pictures though pictures never do justice for something like that.
Then it was off to River Park Square to eat at Olive Garden - the wait was 1 hour plus so while some of our group ran off and did some window shopping in the mall J & I decided to wait it out at the restaurant with the beeper in hand waiting for a table. We had the best seats in the house as we were sitting at the entrance and watching people come and go and it is fun just to people watch ya know - people are interesting creatures! J decided to order us some drinks as we were thirsty from the hour trek from Davenport. Anyhow, he ordered a brewsky and was sipping it down and I just had a Diet Coke in hand - for lack of a better drink (DIET PEPSI!!!). Anyhow this young couple (adults mind you) comes in and she has this 2.5 foot stuffed rag doll that....I kid you not....is dressed in clothes like the guy she is with, camo shorts and a t-shirt the same color as his and the doll has blonde hair just like her guy friend! Okay, so we are talking an adult female carrying a 2.5 foot rag doll with her guy friend and the rag doll and guy are dresed alike..... So, if anyone knows how outspoken J can be, he stops them as they enter and asks the girl if the rag doll is her boyfriend and she says no and laughs (the girl was actually pretty cute about it), J then says well the doll is dressed just like your guy friend and she tells J that the guy (not the doll) is her boyfriend and he made the rag doll for her and he wants her to carry it around with her. I say "how cute?" for lack of something better to say! J starts laughing and the older couple sitting next to us hears the conversation and the gentleman says "I would say to him, if you made it then YOU carry it!".... J starts laughing hysterically about it, most of the laughter of course because he has been buzzed by his brewsky and has basically nothing to eat.....we now have girls outside the restaurant laughing at us because J is laughing so hysterically and the 3 guys taking names looking at us all because now not only are we laughing but the older couple is laughing..... so the rag doll couple leaves and goes outside (not knowing that we are laughing about the doll) and J gets up and goes to the lobby and tells the girls who are laughing at him what the heck HE is hysterically laughing about, then he tells the nametakers at the front entrance......OH MY, OH MY? The couples of today never fail to amaze me! I wonder if the rag doll has clothes that match all her boyfriend's clothes? Is the doll anatomically correct? Did they ask for a booster seat when they were seated to eat last night? We sent the waitress to look for them but she came back with no report and our friend went out looking through the restaurant to no avail!
MY O MY....
So yesterday we take a road trip to see some friends sing & play the drums (Blue Heeler is the group) at Customer Appreciation Day at the campground at Two Rivers Casino. It was great to hear Blue Heeler sing and T drum away ~ Awesome group! I think they were amazed we would drive 3 hours to see them and support them - it was worth it though! Beautiful campground, nice people and always a delight to hear the singing and drumming! We got out of the campbround about 5:00 and drove back to Spokane which was at least an hour back through Davenport and Reardan (never been there (REARDAN???) but they are having a MULES DAY celebration next weekend for all you MULES out there (for lack of a better word))!
After arriving back in Spokane we decided to go see the Spokane River as it is flowing at a very high stage with all the local flooding from the snowmelt and rain happening - it was pretty outstanding and I got some pictures though pictures never do justice for something like that.
Then it was off to River Park Square to eat at Olive Garden - the wait was 1 hour plus so while some of our group ran off and did some window shopping in the mall J & I decided to wait it out at the restaurant with the beeper in hand waiting for a table. We had the best seats in the house as we were sitting at the entrance and watching people come and go and it is fun just to people watch ya know - people are interesting creatures! J decided to order us some drinks as we were thirsty from the hour trek from Davenport. Anyhow, he ordered a brewsky and was sipping it down and I just had a Diet Coke in hand - for lack of a better drink (DIET PEPSI!!!). Anyhow this young couple (adults mind you) comes in and she has this 2.5 foot stuffed rag doll that....I kid you not....is dressed in clothes like the guy she is with, camo shorts and a t-shirt the same color as his and the doll has blonde hair just like her guy friend! Okay, so we are talking an adult female carrying a 2.5 foot rag doll with her guy friend and the rag doll and guy are dresed alike..... So, if anyone knows how outspoken J can be, he stops them as they enter and asks the girl if the rag doll is her boyfriend and she says no and laughs (the girl was actually pretty cute about it), J then says well the doll is dressed just like your guy friend and she tells J that the guy (not the doll) is her boyfriend and he made the rag doll for her and he wants her to carry it around with her. I say "how cute?" for lack of something better to say! J starts laughing and the older couple sitting next to us hears the conversation and the gentleman says "I would say to him, if you made it then YOU carry it!".... J starts laughing hysterically about it, most of the laughter of course because he has been buzzed by his brewsky and has basically nothing to eat.....we now have girls outside the restaurant laughing at us because J is laughing so hysterically and the 3 guys taking names looking at us all because now not only are we laughing but the older couple is laughing..... so the rag doll couple leaves and goes outside (not knowing that we are laughing about the doll) and J gets up and goes to the lobby and tells the girls who are laughing at him what the heck HE is hysterically laughing about, then he tells the nametakers at the front entrance......OH MY, OH MY? The couples of today never fail to amaze me! I wonder if the rag doll has clothes that match all her boyfriend's clothes? Is the doll anatomically correct? Did they ask for a booster seat when they were seated to eat last night? We sent the waitress to look for them but she came back with no report and our friend went out looking through the restaurant to no avail!
MY O MY....
Friday, May 23, 2008
The beginning of the weekened....
What are your plans, what are your plans?
We are heading up to Lake Roosevelt for the day tomorrow to see Blue Heeler! I have never been there before - they have a fireworks show over the dam at 10:00 p.m. but we won't be there I don't think at 10:00 p.m. Hopefully we are home or nearly home by then! Apparently it is a casino she is playing outside of but the casino lady I called today had no clue what I was talking about.....
Hopefully I can take some time this weekend to organize my life a bit maybe that will lift my spirits! It has been a tough day today.....but tomorrow will be better right, at least that is what is always said!
So the BIG NAIA games start here in L-town either tonight or tomorrow! That is a huge thing for the valley but I try to hide from it! To much testosterone flowing and to many people - makes me cranky! Is it better to be cranky or sad??? That is an idea maybe I could go hang out with a few thousand of my not so close friends and take care of my sadness and get my cranky pants on! Solves the sadness!
I gotta cheer up for the family for the weekend....make it enjoyable! I will let you know how that goes!
P.S. I am babysitting my mom's bird for the next 9 days - some of you know what happened the last time I babysat her bird....GULP....this is actually supposed to be My Bird but I dropped it off at her house a year ago when I went on vacation and just failed to retrieve it again! She does a better job with him - he is a spoiled rotten little biter! Anyhow, I will keep you posted on the adventure of the next 9 days.
We are heading up to Lake Roosevelt for the day tomorrow to see Blue Heeler! I have never been there before - they have a fireworks show over the dam at 10:00 p.m. but we won't be there I don't think at 10:00 p.m. Hopefully we are home or nearly home by then! Apparently it is a casino she is playing outside of but the casino lady I called today had no clue what I was talking about.....
Hopefully I can take some time this weekend to organize my life a bit maybe that will lift my spirits! It has been a tough day today.....but tomorrow will be better right, at least that is what is always said!
So the BIG NAIA games start here in L-town either tonight or tomorrow! That is a huge thing for the valley but I try to hide from it! To much testosterone flowing and to many people - makes me cranky! Is it better to be cranky or sad??? That is an idea maybe I could go hang out with a few thousand of my not so close friends and take care of my sadness and get my cranky pants on! Solves the sadness!
I gotta cheer up for the family for the weekend....make it enjoyable! I will let you know how that goes!
P.S. I am babysitting my mom's bird for the next 9 days - some of you know what happened the last time I babysat her bird....GULP....this is actually supposed to be My Bird but I dropped it off at her house a year ago when I went on vacation and just failed to retrieve it again! She does a better job with him - he is a spoiled rotten little biter! Anyhow, I will keep you posted on the adventure of the next 9 days.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Something more to be sad about.........
I just read that Steven Curtis Chapman (the Christian singer) lost one of his daughter's last evening. Apparently there was an accident at his home and she was ran over by a vehicle. She was 5 and they had adopted her from China - she was the oldest of the three children that they have adopted from China! My heart really aches for them tonight! So very sad for his entire family - what a tragedy! I pray for GOD to comfort them as only GOD can! Peace to each of them!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tn8ajucsXr8
You may want to say a prayer for the family for them!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tn8ajucsXr8
You may want to say a prayer for the family for them!
Depressed....
I can't quite put my finger on it but I think I am either depressed or heading there....I feel sad inside! I don't like the feeling but I can't quite figure what to do to get out of it! Maybe it is just a valley I need to go through in life, it seems it has been awhile since I have been this sad....I am not sure what sent me here but here I am in the midst of a valley. Is it the weather? Is it I am unsettled about what to do with Ang next year as far as school? Maybe it is because my life is in such disarray? Maybe it is because I can't quite get my diet plan straightened back out and back on the wagon? I am not sure what it is but like I said I don't like it - I don't like my heart aching over all the bad things in life!
I am going to try to get out of town on Saturday and go to Davenport, WA - we are going to see a local singer perform at the casino up there! How exciting for them to get invited up there to perform.
Speaking of a trip out of town - gas prices are crazy! My husband just called to make sure I fill up today when I go out because gas prices are supposed to skyrocket again over this HOLIDAY weekend! That sucks! I am so tired of whatever is going on - that makes me sad too! There are people who can't afford the gas prices who are retired and live on limited budgets! What is up with all this crap - I don't get it! Another raping by our lovely country and Oh yes, I understand that it is one of the best places to live in the world - could that be because China owns most of us? Slap me! I am just so tired of politics and all the money that gets "wasted" on campaigning for the crooks! YEESH - there I blew some steam stored up somewhere in my mind! Wake me up when the new president is elected because I am tired of hearing about it!
I am going to try to get out of town on Saturday and go to Davenport, WA - we are going to see a local singer perform at the casino up there! How exciting for them to get invited up there to perform.
Speaking of a trip out of town - gas prices are crazy! My husband just called to make sure I fill up today when I go out because gas prices are supposed to skyrocket again over this HOLIDAY weekend! That sucks! I am so tired of whatever is going on - that makes me sad too! There are people who can't afford the gas prices who are retired and live on limited budgets! What is up with all this crap - I don't get it! Another raping by our lovely country and Oh yes, I understand that it is one of the best places to live in the world - could that be because China owns most of us? Slap me! I am just so tired of politics and all the money that gets "wasted" on campaigning for the crooks! YEESH - there I blew some steam stored up somewhere in my mind! Wake me up when the new president is elected because I am tired of hearing about it!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
What a weekend....I am tired, okay EXHAUSTED!
It was REVELATION weekend finally for sorority. We spent the weekend in a cabin out of town! It was good to be with girlfriends, laugh, be silly and relax! No time schedule, no errands to run - it was an escape! I so needed it. I love to sit and watch the campfire, smell the campfire and the clean air, listen to the wind blow the pine trees, listen to the different birds, watch the deer in the distance and the wild turkeys. It was so nice! I could live in the woods in a cabin. I caught a good movie last night with some of the girls - P.S. I Love You - it was a great chick flick! Friday night I tried to watch 27 Dresses, I watched until my eyes wouldn't focus any more and had to hit the sack before the movie was over, unfortunately it was one of those nights that I hit the pillow and of course, then I couldn't got to sleep - I started thinking of the year prior when I was sharing a room with the Queen and how fun that was, listening to her CPAP machine (ha - it really wasn't bad) - I missed her and was lonely, there were the girls in another room laughing and talking and I was thinking how much I wished she was there to be silly with!!! I knew the girls in the other room would have welcomed me if I would have hopped up and went in to join in their chit-chat and laughter but I just laid in bed and had some thinking time!
Saturday afternoon the 11 of us girls "HAD" to play GUESSTURE (the charades game) - I soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo didn't want to play! I just wanted to relax but there were some true WHINERS among us who forced EVERYONE to play (NO PERSONAL CHOICE WAS ALLOWED) - it was pretty funny to watch everyone get up and try to play out the words they were trying to get across to their teammates before the cards disappeared into the timer!
My forehead is sunburned from having my hair back in a headband - looking like a dork - and it is "ouchy" tonight! My back hurts from the chairs that I am not used to sitting in and getting up from, my body is so tired to start out a new work week, I hurt, I am yawning and my tail is dragging trying to scramble to make sure everyone has clean clothes, socks, underwear to dawn tomorrow for school and work but the weekend was sooo worth it!
I am so thankful I had the opportunity to spend a weekend with 11 wonderful ladies who put aside their personal lives to share a weekend with each other, act silly, share stories and get to know one another a little better! It feels so good to laugh and let loose....any maybe, just maybe, we all needed to hear stories from one another and perhaps each of us gained something we needed.
The best part of being away for a few days is coming home to see the family, learn about their weekend and what they did and just be with them again!
Well, tomorrow is going to come all to soon and it is an exciting day also - J&D are finalizing their adoption of K-Baby and have asked us to be there, I don't think Joe will be able to attend but I have planned to take an hour or so to go over and share in the joy and celebration of K-Baby's "GOTCHA DAY"! What a little BlEsSiNg she is! Tomorrow night it is another Celebration with them!
Happy MONDAY - OHHHHHHHH -I wonder how I am going to begin to get through the day as exhausted as I feel right now!
Saturday afternoon the 11 of us girls "HAD" to play GUESSTURE (the charades game) - I soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo didn't want to play! I just wanted to relax but there were some true WHINERS among us who forced EVERYONE to play (NO PERSONAL CHOICE WAS ALLOWED) - it was pretty funny to watch everyone get up and try to play out the words they were trying to get across to their teammates before the cards disappeared into the timer!
My forehead is sunburned from having my hair back in a headband - looking like a dork - and it is "ouchy" tonight! My back hurts from the chairs that I am not used to sitting in and getting up from, my body is so tired to start out a new work week, I hurt, I am yawning and my tail is dragging trying to scramble to make sure everyone has clean clothes, socks, underwear to dawn tomorrow for school and work but the weekend was sooo worth it!
I am so thankful I had the opportunity to spend a weekend with 11 wonderful ladies who put aside their personal lives to share a weekend with each other, act silly, share stories and get to know one another a little better! It feels so good to laugh and let loose....any maybe, just maybe, we all needed to hear stories from one another and perhaps each of us gained something we needed.
The best part of being away for a few days is coming home to see the family, learn about their weekend and what they did and just be with them again!
Well, tomorrow is going to come all to soon and it is an exciting day also - J&D are finalizing their adoption of K-Baby and have asked us to be there, I don't think Joe will be able to attend but I have planned to take an hour or so to go over and share in the joy and celebration of K-Baby's "GOTCHA DAY"! What a little BlEsSiNg she is! Tomorrow night it is another Celebration with them!
Happy MONDAY - OHHHHHHHH -I wonder how I am going to begin to get through the day as exhausted as I feel right now!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
It is Thursday already.....
WOW - I have been a busy girl this week! I have ran hither and yonder almost every day! I had allergy testing this week - 48 hours of tests taped to my back (oh ya...and I am allergic to tapes so that makes it MORE fun)!
Wednesday night was Scouts and Angelo received his badge - he was so excited....
and proud! Congratulations to him and his troop and leaders!
So, wow, not much else I can say that isn't whining! I think it is one of those whiney months for me!
The kid has kept his nose clean at school pretty much - he did have a hard day on Monday but I think we got that straightened out! WOW! He has been encouraging us to pray every night before bedtime as a family - which is a good thing, at least I think it is! I need it!
I am really looking forward to tomorrow and getting to get out of town. Head for a cabin in the trees and sit around a campfire. Laugh and visit with the girls...no boys on this outing! I need some ME time to unwind - it has been extremely difficult the past few weeks and I am not sure exactly what is the most stressful but there is a combination of factors going on behind the scenes and I just want to say it hasn't been good!
Last Saturday we did get to go as a family out to the parking lot of the Elks to star gaze for a few minutes before the clouds rolled in and covered the moon and stars! It was pretty amazing - I got to see Saturn and its rings and we looked at the moon. Angelo pointed out Mars to us also but no one believed him until research was done and then they said "hey, he was right!" (THAT's MY BOY!)
Anyhow, I may post some later but that is my boring little life in a nutshell....probably a peanut shell to be exact!
Wednesday night was Scouts and Angelo received his badge - he was so excited....
and proud! Congratulations to him and his troop and leaders!
So, wow, not much else I can say that isn't whining! I think it is one of those whiney months for me!
The kid has kept his nose clean at school pretty much - he did have a hard day on Monday but I think we got that straightened out! WOW! He has been encouraging us to pray every night before bedtime as a family - which is a good thing, at least I think it is! I need it!
I am really looking forward to tomorrow and getting to get out of town. Head for a cabin in the trees and sit around a campfire. Laugh and visit with the girls...no boys on this outing! I need some ME time to unwind - it has been extremely difficult the past few weeks and I am not sure exactly what is the most stressful but there is a combination of factors going on behind the scenes and I just want to say it hasn't been good!
Last Saturday we did get to go as a family out to the parking lot of the Elks to star gaze for a few minutes before the clouds rolled in and covered the moon and stars! It was pretty amazing - I got to see Saturn and its rings and we looked at the moon. Angelo pointed out Mars to us also but no one believed him until research was done and then they said "hey, he was right!" (THAT's MY BOY!)
Anyhow, I may post some later but that is my boring little life in a nutshell....probably a peanut shell to be exact!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
Is the week almost over?
This has been one HECK of a week! WOW, I have spent so much time stressed out over school for my son and time spent with the principle....HOLY COW, I was "emotionally" drained and still am half empty. My child is in private school and I guess my expectations are too high or something. I mean the past three weeks he has been in trouble at least two times each week. I know he is NO ANGEL but come on.....from drinking too much of the communion wine (wine - not to be confused with the blood of Christ and alcohol is bad for you - just in case you didn't know!), to being locked in the boys bathroom by a child he has NEVER gotten along with and I have REQUESTED that he not spend time around this child because the kid picks on him - so this week he goes to the bathroom with him as the boys have to take another boy with him and no one would go with him to the bathroom besides this kid - so guess what, he holds the stall door so my child can't get out of the stall and my child yells and gets busted! Put it this way....it was the LAST straw in my day!
I just am full and fed up! I can't take a lot more! I am angry and upset! Even after talking I just feel drained and empty. My husband feels better but I just feel like there are no true answers to these problems.
I often wonder if my name was a significant name in this valley that I would have the same problems with my child in private school. Let's face it...this town there are some BIG FISH in a little POND attitudes and they have lotsa pull wherever they go and the average person is pond scum (at least that is my interpretation)! I am tired of it! I am someone and so is my family! I am tired of sitting on the sideline and getting smooshed - it happens at work and it happens at school! I would like to tell people don't treat me like crap, respect me and don't yank me around - why do you think you can yank me around and treat me the way you do? What gives you the right? Is it because I don't fit into your mold of perfection or financial categories!
The other part of me says - you know what, when this life is over and we are all called to stand in judgment in front of our maker I won't have to answer to him for them, the ones that treat others badly....nope...they are going to stand there and be responsible for their actions and the people the tripped up in life. I need to hand the grief that these people dish out to me and others back to them in a kind manner and let them be responsible for their actions. I will only be responsible for ME and my actions - which I make mistakes and am naughty but my heart tries to be good most of the time unless I am overfilled with SCUM and GUNK which is where I am now!
I need to trust the maker that he is going to take care of the gunk that people dish out and the gunk in my life.
I am tired of the worry if people like me. I am done trying to pass inspection. You know that takes a heck of a lot of time trying to please others - it takes away from my family's time with me because I am worried about pleasing people. Do others worry if they are pleasing me or hurting me - NOPE, I don't think so! It needs to stop and now!
Okay, so on an up note - which they are far and few between the last few days....I need to get some projects done this weekend - like my Secret Sister gift for next weekend - it is Revelation for sorority! I started something earlier this year and need to wind it up and get it done! I also need to decide on another project - sometimes it is so hard to figure out something to be creative with! I have ideas I just don't know what the person would LOVE!
So at 4:00 tonight it is off to the races - kid goes to birthday party at the aquatic center, i pick the husband up at work and go to the field at school and wait for my name to be announced to win the $25,000.00 toward a NEW CAR (wouldn't that just be the gift?)...of course, $1,000.00 worth of gas wouldn't be bad either!
So as usual Friday is here and let the RACES begin! I am so looking forward to next weekend - out in the cabin at Revelation, campfire, laughter and relaxation! Oh HOW I NEED THAT! Can I make it through another week like this one? GULP!$#!!!!
I just am full and fed up! I can't take a lot more! I am angry and upset! Even after talking I just feel drained and empty. My husband feels better but I just feel like there are no true answers to these problems.
I often wonder if my name was a significant name in this valley that I would have the same problems with my child in private school. Let's face it...this town there are some BIG FISH in a little POND attitudes and they have lotsa pull wherever they go and the average person is pond scum (at least that is my interpretation)! I am tired of it! I am someone and so is my family! I am tired of sitting on the sideline and getting smooshed - it happens at work and it happens at school! I would like to tell people don't treat me like crap, respect me and don't yank me around - why do you think you can yank me around and treat me the way you do? What gives you the right? Is it because I don't fit into your mold of perfection or financial categories!
The other part of me says - you know what, when this life is over and we are all called to stand in judgment in front of our maker I won't have to answer to him for them, the ones that treat others badly....nope...they are going to stand there and be responsible for their actions and the people the tripped up in life. I need to hand the grief that these people dish out to me and others back to them in a kind manner and let them be responsible for their actions. I will only be responsible for ME and my actions - which I make mistakes and am naughty but my heart tries to be good most of the time unless I am overfilled with SCUM and GUNK which is where I am now!
I need to trust the maker that he is going to take care of the gunk that people dish out and the gunk in my life.
I am tired of the worry if people like me. I am done trying to pass inspection. You know that takes a heck of a lot of time trying to please others - it takes away from my family's time with me because I am worried about pleasing people. Do others worry if they are pleasing me or hurting me - NOPE, I don't think so! It needs to stop and now!
Okay, so on an up note - which they are far and few between the last few days....I need to get some projects done this weekend - like my Secret Sister gift for next weekend - it is Revelation for sorority! I started something earlier this year and need to wind it up and get it done! I also need to decide on another project - sometimes it is so hard to figure out something to be creative with! I have ideas I just don't know what the person would LOVE!
So at 4:00 tonight it is off to the races - kid goes to birthday party at the aquatic center, i pick the husband up at work and go to the field at school and wait for my name to be announced to win the $25,000.00 toward a NEW CAR (wouldn't that just be the gift?)...of course, $1,000.00 worth of gas wouldn't be bad either!
So as usual Friday is here and let the RACES begin! I am so looking forward to next weekend - out in the cabin at Revelation, campfire, laughter and relaxation! Oh HOW I NEED THAT! Can I make it through another week like this one? GULP!$#!!!!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
The things that come out of my mouth....and Allergist Appointmnent!
Okay - so yesterday at approximately 7:45 I am cruising down the road heading to my appointment for my allergist consultation. I come around a corner and there are two Nimrods in the road (Nimrod age guesstimation....13-14 and 9-10)....do kids have any brain cells or were they born from parents who did one to many drugs or something? Okay, so anyhow, the younger of the two nimrods is walking "IN" the road with the traffic - WHY? I do not know - DEATHWISH maybe? The other NIMROD, the older one is skateboarding down the center line into oncoming traffic....so I honk my horn and the older of the two NIMROD children flipped me the bird so I slam on my brakes and roll down my window and return the favor and scream (at the top of my voice for him to - well I can't type it out here)....it felt good, I think I hold so many issues in and never express myself that it felt good to yell at the NIMROD CHILD! I wanted to kick his butt but I am 42 years old and that is illegal! I don't get the attitudes of kids today - NO RESPECT, they are taught nothing about being in the middle of a busy main road skateboarding - personally, my parents would have kicked my tail and I would have been grounded for a month....and believe me ~ SOMEHOW, somebody would have seen me that knew my parents and reported my actions to them! Kids today don't know what respect is and what it is to be accountable for your actions (well come kids do still)! I try to teach my child respect and give him examples of being respectful to others and what being disrespectful is! GOSH, I just wanted to slap the crap outta that kid - if some person would hit him you can bettttt your butt it would have been the driver of the vehicles fault and they would have been in BIGGG trouble but yet the kid is the one being a NIMROD or whatever you want to call him! Oh ya, and the best part when I yelled at the Nimrod I think it scared him that I slammed my brakes on...because he got out of the roadway!
So that is how I started my MONDAY morning - yes, I was kind of a little out of line but I have to be once in awhile when I am ALONE, I almost felt like Kathy Bates in that movie where the girls take her parking spot and she just backs up and starts ramming their car over and over again....but, I guess, now I will have to add that to my list to take to confession that I screamed profanities out the window in anger (WRONG THING TO DO).
So I get to my appointment and try to paste the happy smile back on my face - I didn't want to - some days I would just LOVE to be a real WITCH all day - ya know what I mean, Mrs. Nasty - the one whose line you don't want in at the grocery store. Wouldn't it be fun for a day just to glare at people and have a chip on your shoulder....I can't do it though - I did for 15 minutes yesterday but I was in my car driving to an appointment but BOY OH BOY if anyone would have saw me yesterday a.m. they would have thought I was a RIP because I had a nasty face on all 7 miles to my doctor's appointment. It felt gooooooooood, real good!
I take in naughty comments to me and naughtiness I see and naughtiness to my family and friends and I just take it in and store it and store it and store it and I am telling you I need an outlet - it felt good to scream at the top of my lungs to that little NIMROD kid! SHAME ON ME - I feel bad for feeling good! GUILT! I need to learn to express myself and get my point across - I am tired of storing it all inside my body while my body takes all the stress I feel! Maybe that is the reason I am seeing an allergist because of a "weird" rash that comes and goes! Maybe I have to much gunk in my body from storing all the rudeness the world gives me and not expressing myself!
WHEW - I better stop while I still can on that subject!
So anyhow, the allergist wants me to have a 5 hour glucose tolerance test to see my body is able to metabolize sugars the way it should and also wants me to dissect some of my clothing (oh, well okay my bra) because he thinks I may be allergic to the fabric in my bra and pants - possibly LATEX (I am thinking). Anyhow, so before next Monday I have to cut 1/2-inch squares out of my old bra and a pair of old pants to take in to get applied to my skin to see if I have a reaction! I also need to double rinse my clothes to make sure all the detergent gets washed out of them! All this because I use steroid cream maybe 2 days every couple weeks! Not like I am wanting pain pills to pop every few hours or something!
Sound like fun - almost like a sewing project huh - I mean the 1/2 inch squares and all - hmmm should I use my rotary cutter or my Fiskar scissors, should I scallop the edges so it will look cute on my back or just do a straight cut? Decisions - Decisions!
So to move on to brighter subject - It was Joe's Birthday last night (HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE!) - we went to BBQ & Blues with some friends for ribs - we had a great time! I hope all our friends enjoyed it as much as we did! There was a ziplock bag at the other end of the table that I am not sure why the rib bucket kept emptying into the bag but WHATEVER....what I don't know won't hurt me right? Anyhow, I think Joe enjoyed his birthday lots - he said it was the most fun he has had for his birthday in a few years - that means everyone who was there made it special for him! THANK YOU ALL!
So that is how I started my MONDAY morning - yes, I was kind of a little out of line but I have to be once in awhile when I am ALONE, I almost felt like Kathy Bates in that movie where the girls take her parking spot and she just backs up and starts ramming their car over and over again....but, I guess, now I will have to add that to my list to take to confession that I screamed profanities out the window in anger (WRONG THING TO DO).
So I get to my appointment and try to paste the happy smile back on my face - I didn't want to - some days I would just LOVE to be a real WITCH all day - ya know what I mean, Mrs. Nasty - the one whose line you don't want in at the grocery store. Wouldn't it be fun for a day just to glare at people and have a chip on your shoulder....I can't do it though - I did for 15 minutes yesterday but I was in my car driving to an appointment but BOY OH BOY if anyone would have saw me yesterday a.m. they would have thought I was a RIP because I had a nasty face on all 7 miles to my doctor's appointment. It felt gooooooooood, real good!
I take in naughty comments to me and naughtiness I see and naughtiness to my family and friends and I just take it in and store it and store it and store it and I am telling you I need an outlet - it felt good to scream at the top of my lungs to that little NIMROD kid! SHAME ON ME - I feel bad for feeling good! GUILT! I need to learn to express myself and get my point across - I am tired of storing it all inside my body while my body takes all the stress I feel! Maybe that is the reason I am seeing an allergist because of a "weird" rash that comes and goes! Maybe I have to much gunk in my body from storing all the rudeness the world gives me and not expressing myself!
WHEW - I better stop while I still can on that subject!
So anyhow, the allergist wants me to have a 5 hour glucose tolerance test to see my body is able to metabolize sugars the way it should and also wants me to dissect some of my clothing (oh, well okay my bra) because he thinks I may be allergic to the fabric in my bra and pants - possibly LATEX (I am thinking). Anyhow, so before next Monday I have to cut 1/2-inch squares out of my old bra and a pair of old pants to take in to get applied to my skin to see if I have a reaction! I also need to double rinse my clothes to make sure all the detergent gets washed out of them! All this because I use steroid cream maybe 2 days every couple weeks! Not like I am wanting pain pills to pop every few hours or something!
Sound like fun - almost like a sewing project huh - I mean the 1/2 inch squares and all - hmmm should I use my rotary cutter or my Fiskar scissors, should I scallop the edges so it will look cute on my back or just do a straight cut? Decisions - Decisions!
So to move on to brighter subject - It was Joe's Birthday last night (HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE!) - we went to BBQ & Blues with some friends for ribs - we had a great time! I hope all our friends enjoyed it as much as we did! There was a ziplock bag at the other end of the table that I am not sure why the rib bucket kept emptying into the bag but WHATEVER....what I don't know won't hurt me right? Anyhow, I think Joe enjoyed his birthday lots - he said it was the most fun he has had for his birthday in a few years - that means everyone who was there made it special for him! THANK YOU ALL!
Sunday, May 4, 2008
I can see clearly now....
WOW - that is 2.5 days I don't want to re-live! Okay there were some really cute things that happened when I was soooo sick! Thursday night is when the illness knocked me down - I didn't feel well all day but by 5:00 Thursday night I was not good! Joe was working late so I told Angelo "Mom has to go lady down for awhile". I told him I didn't feel well and that is when Nurse Angelo came to the rescue. He kept checking on me and brought me a cup of water with a straw in it and said "mom, you better drink some water - it may help you feel better". I didn't want to but he was just so darn cute about it - I did! He then told me I need to take Tylenol so I directed him to the bottle in the bathroom (bad mom - yes, I know) but he got it and brought it to me and then proceeded to tell me he could open the "childproof" cap and he did - dumped out two Tylenol in the lid and then dumped them in my hand - such a sterile procedure. Anyway that was so cute - it made my heart happy even though my body was sick and weak.
I missed work Friday - there was just NO way, even working at home, that I could have sat up all day - I slept most of the day away.
I woke up Saturday morning hoping to be "healed" and I still felt yucky - I spent part of Friday night/Saturday morning up anyhow watching the TV (just an FYI - there is nothing much on between the hours of 1:00 a.m. and 4:30 a.m. - thankfully I had some DVR'd episodes of Little People Big World I could watch). Having not eaten anything for 2.5 days and very little in the way of fluids I felt real rough. I managed to shower and get ready to go weigh-in at WW. I downed a little bit of 7-Up and some Imodium after having an early morning RUN on underwear changes (anyhow, you get the point), and headed over to weigh in - Here is what fasting can do for ya - 6.6 lbs lost! I am SOOOO dreading next Saturday when I am REhydrated, have eaten and have NOT been sprinting to the bathroom every 30 minutes and then having to step on the scales - I have a hunch it ain't gonna be so pretty but we will see - I will hold a bit of hope but I expect something in the way of a GAIN! Anyhow, then it was off to the early a.m. soccer game (Last one for SPRING soccer) - I decided I better lay low and stay close to the vehicle just in case I needed to make a quick run to the quicky mart for a bathroom break but THANKFULLY the Imodium (even having been outdated from 3/07) still did its business!
After lying low Saturday afternoon we went out for dinner with friends and then to here our favorite singer sing at a club. It was good to get out of the house with some adult time and feeling halfway back to normal!
Today we rose early and headed to pick up Angelo at Grandma & Grandpa's house, that was our strict instructions - pick him up IN THE MORNING (EARLY)! Gotta love em! We had to do a Costco run because we were running short on the T-paper! I picked up some potting soil and had plans of redoing my pots for the summer. We then grabbed lunch out - I had a killer cup of soup! We were headed home and had to swing by K-mart and I picked up some flowers to plant in my pots, which I am proud to say I got accomplished - they are in the pots as I type tonight! I just finished whipping up a strawberry rhubarb crisp and it is cooking - it is for Joe-Joe's birthday tomorrow....SHHHHHH!
I will post some pics of my flower pots tomorrow....I am TOOOO tired to get my camera to hook it up to the computer to download the pics right now!
I missed work Friday - there was just NO way, even working at home, that I could have sat up all day - I slept most of the day away.
I woke up Saturday morning hoping to be "healed" and I still felt yucky - I spent part of Friday night/Saturday morning up anyhow watching the TV (just an FYI - there is nothing much on between the hours of 1:00 a.m. and 4:30 a.m. - thankfully I had some DVR'd episodes of Little People Big World I could watch). Having not eaten anything for 2.5 days and very little in the way of fluids I felt real rough. I managed to shower and get ready to go weigh-in at WW. I downed a little bit of 7-Up and some Imodium after having an early morning RUN on underwear changes (anyhow, you get the point), and headed over to weigh in - Here is what fasting can do for ya - 6.6 lbs lost! I am SOOOO dreading next Saturday when I am REhydrated, have eaten and have NOT been sprinting to the bathroom every 30 minutes and then having to step on the scales - I have a hunch it ain't gonna be so pretty but we will see - I will hold a bit of hope but I expect something in the way of a GAIN! Anyhow, then it was off to the early a.m. soccer game (Last one for SPRING soccer) - I decided I better lay low and stay close to the vehicle just in case I needed to make a quick run to the quicky mart for a bathroom break but THANKFULLY the Imodium (even having been outdated from 3/07) still did its business!
After lying low Saturday afternoon we went out for dinner with friends and then to here our favorite singer sing at a club. It was good to get out of the house with some adult time and feeling halfway back to normal!
Today we rose early and headed to pick up Angelo at Grandma & Grandpa's house, that was our strict instructions - pick him up IN THE MORNING (EARLY)! Gotta love em! We had to do a Costco run because we were running short on the T-paper! I picked up some potting soil and had plans of redoing my pots for the summer. We then grabbed lunch out - I had a killer cup of soup! We were headed home and had to swing by K-mart and I picked up some flowers to plant in my pots, which I am proud to say I got accomplished - they are in the pots as I type tonight! I just finished whipping up a strawberry rhubarb crisp and it is cooking - it is for Joe-Joe's birthday tomorrow....SHHHHHH!
I will post some pics of my flower pots tomorrow....I am TOOOO tired to get my camera to hook it up to the computer to download the pics right now!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Still Sick and I mean sick....
In the last 24-hours I have spent numerous hours with the porcelain God - first one way and then another....it ain't pretty! I don't what I have but it isn't fun! I was hoping for a 24-hour bug but it has been 24-hours and it is still hanging on.
I don't like it I hope it goes away soon as quickly as it wandered into my life! UGGHHH!
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I don't like it I hope it goes away soon as quickly as it wandered into my life! UGGHHH!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
I feel ICKY!!!!
I feel like I am going to lose it....
I am nauseous, headache and chilled! I think I might DIE....okay, maybe not but ICK I don't like feeling like this!
I think I am going to crawl back in bed!
BLUCK!
I am nauseous, headache and chilled! I think I might DIE....okay, maybe not but ICK I don't like feeling like this!
I think I am going to crawl back in bed!
BLUCK!
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